I am an afterthought

Running on about 2.5 hours of sleep today. The work in the cold at the barn left me exhausted and I fully expected to be asleep the instant my head hit the pillow. Instead, I spent almost the entire night tossing and turning with the same thoughts stubbornly going around and around in my head. Not a fun situation.

I didn't pack a lunch for work last night. It just slipped my mind. A couple folk in here were going out for lunch and asked me if I'd like to come. Sure. Just lemme know when you're ready to go. I saw 'em in the hall when they got back from lunch Wups. Forgot all about me.

Unfortunately, this is happening a lot in the various aspects of my life right now. Doesn't help a person's self esteem when friends, family, and coworkers all go off doing thing, knowing that I want to do them, too, but don't bother to wait for me or tell me when they're doing them.

Frankly, it sucks. Added to the pile of stresses that I'm already enduring, it makes me just want to give up. On everything.