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It's an odd feeling, slowly falling behind. Definitely not a good one. Watching folks drift away, growing, moving on with their lives and knowing that you can't keep up. It's good to see them finding new friends and things to do, though you're unable to change fast enough. Knowing that they're getting what they want and deserve and need, but knowing that you're not what they need any more. Just doing the same things you've always done because you don't know how to do anything else and can't learn the new things without a lot of help. Eventually they'll think that's the way you want to be, which is probably for the best since it means you won't hold them back as they grow and change. Soon they'll be gone and you'll be that person they used to talk or hang out with. The 'whatever became of' person. If you're lucky, you'll manage to find others to start the cycle over again. Over time, though, that happens less and less. Hopefully, you've helped them a little in their growth before they're gone.